Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I read this wonderful article in Yoga Journal yesterday, titled Befriending Your Fears. We all struggle with our fears - it sure seems that on any given day I'll somehow find something to feel fear about. Nowadays, I'm mostly able to let it be and tell myself, "Oh, there's that fear again" when I feel my stomach start to churn and that unpleasant adrenaline-y buzziness comes up again. When the mind starts to visualize The Very Worst Outcome. The author calls this a Trance of Fear; what a great phrase.
Recently, it seems that with nothing else to feel especially fearful about, I've chosen to worry about driving home. And look! The weather wants to cooperate by raining and being cold and creating horrible muddy spots in which neighbors get stuck (yes, we had to pull someone out the other day) and concocting thick tule fogs which are the worst of all. I'm such a city mouse driver even though we've migrated to the country. I already know that it's way worse elsewhere and there's the discomfort anyway.
I especially loved this paragraph from the article: "As long as you are alive, you will feel fear. It is an intrinsic part of your world, as natural as a bitter cold winter day or the winds that rip branches off trees. If you resist it or push it aside, you miss a powerful opportunity for healing and freedom. When you face your fears with mindfulness and compassion, you begin to realize the loving and luminous awareness that, like the ocean, can hold the moving waves. This boundless presence is your true refuge - you are coming home to the vastness of your own awakened heart."